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Okay - I am STILL ALIVE!!!  I am losing weight too!!!  I am proud of myself — I have not had my usual freak out moment and ate everything in sight — a few slight ones, but nothing major.  I don’t understand why I always sabotage my diet.  My goal is to lose 20 lbs by Valentines Day - I know they say 2 - 3 lbs per week but I figure that I am not the “average” size person so this weight loss is not unrealistic…  At least I am hoping ;)  In the end I am still on track to meet my end goal.  My sister’s wedding is July 25th so I figured an average of 3 lbs per week and I should be at 240 or less by the wedding!!  I know to many that still sounds like WAY too much, but for ME — that is me feeling AWESOME!  I have been that weight before (6 years ago) and I feel so much more healthy and beautiful.  But that will only be the start — I know I have more to lose after that.  Anyways, time to go to bed — I have to walk away the waistline tomorrow morning

I have finished my first week….it wasn’t as bad as I thought it was going to be.  I exercised and I thought my legs were going to break everytime I sat down for the next three days, but besides that….all went well.  I have exercised every day except one and I ate SOOOO much better than I normally do.  I am really trying to limit my processed food intake and eating more protein, fruits, and vegetables.  I have lost some weight but I just want to fast forward my life to where I don’t have this “baggage” but I guess this is a learning experience and I need it to not get in this place again.  I have got my new exercise dvds (Biggest Loser Cardio, Sculpt, and Bootcamp and Jillian’s Shred) — I am excited to try them out!!  My goal this week is to exercise every morning before work and after work.  We will see how it goes!  On to the next week!!!

I have survived my 2nd day!!!  I have also exercised both days, but let me tell you it was not easy.  My legs are killing me!!!  I just can’t believe I have let myself get this far — where did the weight come from?  Oh yeah, from all the crap that I ate :)  I have been going out to eat with co-workers almost every night Mon - Thurs so I had to tell them the disappointing news today that I will no longer be joining them.  I hate not being able to go out and eat and drink and not have to worry about this.  But I am determined to go home and eat a healthy meal and exercise!!  I will succeed this time.   I am looking forward to the 500 lb challenge and I appreciate all of the kind words and support from everyone!

Well today is the day…. the first day of rest of my life.  This is not the first time I have went down this route, but I am hoping it is the last!!!  I have so much I want to do in my life — the first thing is to fit into a bridesmaid dress for my sister’s wedding.  I feel so bad that I am not super excited for my sister’s wedding and the only thing that is holding back my excitement is the dread of a dress.  You see I am too big to fit into a bridesmaid dress — even the plus size ones!!!  So, this is it!!  I am done being fat, chubby, curvy, whatever you want to call it — i am DONE! 

I am hoping to lose an average of 15 pounds per month — I am planning on exercising and watching (VERY closeyly) what I eat.  Please wish me luck